That was a tough post for me to read.
"I sure hope that she got in those workouts, videos, and runs that I stressed the importance of... But I have a feeling that didn't happen." Her feeling was right... it didn't happen. My exercise fell to the wayside.
"She's supposed to write a blog post 5x per week. These blog posts don't have to be lengthy, in depth, or time consuming at all." I guess because I wasn't exercising, I didn't feel like I had much to write about. My blogging fell to the wayside.
"It worries me. Did I do something wrong and not hold her accountable enough?" I'm sorry I worried her. I'm sorry I made her feel like this was her fault, that she had done something wrong. That couldn't be farther from the truth. I fell to the wayside.
Yes, Abby was gone for a couple of weeks. I was gone for about a week and a half. But, like she said, she had prepared me for that time. I had all the information and instruction I needed. I just didn't do it. One thing I've learned from Abby is that there are no excuses, so you won't hear that from me. I just didn't make this a priority. Period. She said she sees it all the time in the fitness world... folks are gung ho when they start but when it gets tough, they simply quit. That's not the case with me.
Slowly, I'm unfolding just exactly what IS the case with me (which you'll be reading more about soon, I promise!).
The one thing that bothered me most about Abby's post was knowing that I had let her down. Letting myself down is one thing, but I let Abby down. She's not mad, she's not angry... she's disappointed. And that's WAY tougher for me to deal with. People can be mad at me all day long, but to know I've disappointed someone really hurts my core.
The last thing Abby said in her post was that she needed me back. The truth, however, is that I need her WAY more than she needs me. She's given so much of herself to me, I need her to know that I appreciate this opportunity and that's it not being wasted. I may not have exercised or blogged during that time, but I'm learning from it all the same.
Bear with me, friends, and help me re-focus!
Ultimately though, this journey is all for YOUR better health and well-being! And only you are responsible for that! Yes, it helps to be accountable to others, but LOVE and RESPECT YOURSELF because you DESERVE IT! :-)
ReplyDeleteThanks Amy! I appreciate that perspective!
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